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Saturday, April 16, 2016

I Am Not a Christian.

I was raised in a Christian family. I had repented of my sins, understood my need for a saviour and excepted the Lord into my heart at the age of five and then at least a dozen or more times into my late teens(As though once was not enough). However, as I became an adult I began to question the faith I had grown up with. This God became to break apart. The theologies I had once accepted and even proclaimed became no more than the attempts of humankind to make sense of the world that surrounds them. I am not saying there is no possibility of a god, but rather that even if there is a god there really is no way that one could comprehend god, at least in the way that many Christians do. What I am trying to say is better put into words by the philosopher Bertrand Russell,

“I do not pretend to be able to prove that there is no God. I equally cannot prove that Satan is a fiction. The Christian god may exist; so may the gods of Olympus, or of ancient Egypt, or of Babylon. But no one of these hypotheses is more probable than any other: they lie outside the region of even probable knowledge, and therefore there is no reason to consider any of them.”

I am continually reminded of my reasonings for leaving this faith as I live in a Christian community that constantly brings up god. I hear time and time again that we are not worthy as human beings. We are lowly, terrible sinners that are deserving of an eternal damnation in hell. Is this any way to think. What positive is in this belief. Oh Christians will find pleasure in this as they have acquired their place in an eternal heaven all the while more than willing to leave behind those unbelievers. They spout forgiveness, all the while spouting a doctrine of eternal torture. They speak of peace yet all the while terrorize the young and old mentally abusing them with fear. They speak of love yet it remains conditional. This is a religion that puts an unprovable idea, an unprovable belief ahead of humankind. This is supposedly a religion of love,

“I do not myself feel that any person who is really profoundly humane can believe in everlasting punishment.”

“When you hear people in church, debasing themselves and saying that they are miserable sinners, and all the rest of it, it seems contemptible and not worthy of self-respecting human beings."

Religions push and fight against one another. Christianity pushes and fights within itself. This is an insult to humanity, to deny our humanness for the sake of divinity. We are all human and human we shall remain. 

“A good world needs knowledge, kindliness, and courage; it does not need a regretful hankering after the past or a fettering of the free intelligence by the words uttered long ago by ignorant men.” 

Undoubtedly the religious will take offence, unless they are of the special and rare breed of those that can actually discourse. But consider it pure joy to be persecuted, although this is hardly what I call persecution when compared to the constant bombardment of religious talk that the unbelievers put up with. I mean really, I have seen sore losers lose better than many Christians who wail and gnash their teeth when you even ask, "maybe there is no god". Oh I am sorry did I offend you by my question? I mean I won't agree with what you claim, but at least I am not threatening you with an eternal damnation. Talk about persecution. I mean it is so hard to be a Christian these days with all the freedom they have to worship, preach and witness. Must be tough. What were those early Christians ever complaining about? But hey Christians should be thanking those that question them because they are then being "persecuted" and we all know what happens to those that are persecuted, they are blessed. So you are welcome. Give me a good word to the big Man/Woman/Individual upstairs, downstairs or in the closet. 

So, what am I? Oh, wouldn't you like to know.


Kmarie said...

Wow that was quite the brilliant "coming out". I enjoyed it immensely. What a relief. What freedom:) I absolutely adore you and also many aspects of Bertrand Russell:) If we can sit through verse after verse, platitude after platitude, prayer after prayer and direct dismissal of all that we are- I think this is a fair post. I also love that you included those who can have discourse without feeling persecuted...those lovely friends are my people...they may also happen to be christians too though I would not describe them as such in my first sentences...Instead I would say they are my friends, my fellow journeyers, the ones who listen as well as talk, that give dignity and compassion and though they may share a different faith or come from the same history as mine (with different results) we still hold to respect and love. We are able to dialogue on both our stances without feeling martyr ish, attacked or defensive. What beauty.
I love you. SO MUCH.

CalledtoQuestion said...

Ahhhh. Deep sigh. Yes, we have many good friends who are Christians, but are really more human than anything(Sorry guys). Their humanness allows us the ability to relate, discuss and journey this life together. Those that put a religious idea or belief before the other is someone I can not fully trust.

Tim B. said...

Outstanding post Philip, takes a lot of courage. "God is love. All else is commentary." Not sure who said that but not any less true.

CalledtoQuestion said...

@ Tim B.
Why thank you my good fellow. :) Great quote. The world is full of commentators, spectators and referees, but not very many participators.